JUNE
This June was an emotional rollercoaster. From high ends to the low ends but in all ends, in the hands of my God King Christ Jesus. How wonderful is He is to be there for this emotional ride. Like a pool with a deep end and a shallow end, I was swimming all around and got nervous with the shallow end. The cold wind that blows over my body and me thinking not what to do other the forcibly submit under the shallow end. God points me to the deep end again. Here I am now writing this.
God provided options and both seem big steps and big decisions, it almost paralyzed me.
I wanted Him to choose but He allowed me to choose and it will make be a better person for choosing. I wrote earlier that I felt like an actual sheep that needed to be cattle-prodded to start moving… lol.
So many questions, so little time — I trust my God King Christ Jesus.
Pentecost was so much fun this year.
The previous years have always been casual but different, God commands us to make it Holy. This year was the first year I “decorated” for the occasion, it definitely made it more festive and fun. Another lovely day of rest provided by our loving God. During the time, I was so nervous that I actually thought it was sooner, then I accidentally celebrated it too early, lol. What can I say, I get excited for the people I care about.
Celebrating these Holy Days have been amazing, real eye-openers to the gravity and reality of our God King Christ Jesus’s work in existence. Not just when Jesus walked the earth for all to see, but how Jesus works throughout time. Truly magnificent!
“4 And they were all filled with the Holy Ghost, and began to speak with other tongues, as the Spirit gave them utterance.”
This month a decision was made so I will be moving from my lil-shoe-box apartment.
It was a wonderful time and a time of growth that I will never forget. What is great that I have always been a type to live for other people with maybe a rest day here and there to recharged. I realized this is human nature and human condition — Jesus tells us to be self-less more and these acts will be more rewarding. Truly when His word says that the world will see this as ignorant and maybe even offensive.
The one concern I have is that I want to make sure I am living the life that glorifies God more, not just in the actions but the influence.
For example, it would be cool to always be in the streets to preach the good word and get with people but even scripture says that a slave to their master can be holy and influential. So I believe the options that were given to me by God would give Him glory.
I do not wish to “test” God, intentionally or accidentally.
I want to make sure my actions are fully thought out but not paralyzed with the possibilities — to move quickly and efficiently for our Jesus. His good word will be praised and preached, but we must not rush it. What does trusting God look like? Sometimes it is staying in the same position you are in but putting yourself in “suffering” for His glory and good name. Sometimes it is making a left turn to take a leap.
I pray that these options are both — I am excited to see what God will do in my life!
“19 The Lord God is my strength, and he will make my feet like hinds’ feet, and he will make me to walk upon mine high places. To the chief singer on my stringed instruments.”
